Back to the real world

Today marks the end of my 12 week maternity leave. What an incredible 12 weeks it has been. I never would have dreamed that I could love another baby as much as I love Hannah. But it's true...your heart does grow when you bring another child into the world. And William has me wrapped around his finger! I'm so thankful that I have had this time to bond with my little boy. I will never forget the time we spent together...often times just looking at each other and "talking", or taking naps together, or playing on the floor together and my silly attempts to make him smile. So many wonderful memories! It just tears my heart apart that I won't be able to do those things with him all day, every day. I'll be living for the weekends. I just don't want to miss anything. I remember feeling the exact same way with Hannah when I went back to work. Those first couple months were very hard for me. Being a working mom is tough and I often find myself questioning whether I've made the right decision. I pray that my children won't hold that against me when they are older.

I have so much more I want to say but I just can't type anymore...the tears are flowing again. I can't wait until 4pm tomorrow when I can get in my car and drive home to my beautiful children.